Growing Up

You know that feeling when you're young, and you like someone but they like someone else, and all of a sudden you just can't feel good about yourself? Like you're not worth anything if they don't like you. And all your insecurities surface at once, because they're the reason he doesn't like you. And suddenly you can't see any good in yourself. It's this crushing feeling, very dark and painful, and it's really hard to get rid of.

I used to get that. Every time, crippling and overwhelming, I'd get that feeling.

Not anymore.

Actually I hadn't realized it had stopped until last night. I was talking to a friend about who I was currently crushing on- he was trying to guess. The person in question does like someone else, and that girl is amazing. She's my friend, she's nice and gorgeous, and they fit really well together. And while talking about that with my friend, I realized it wasn't affecting my self confidence at all. I didn't feel insecure, I didn't feel hurt or offended, and it was a great feeling. Of course I was a little sad. I mean, I like this guy a lot, and we're friends, and we get along fairly well. But it didn't affect how I saw myself to know he didn't like me that way.

Thank goodness.

Growing up can be really great.