Retrospection

I've been thinking about the past. Never a good thing to do, right? It wasn't this time.

I've been remembering the friends I had and how we kind of fell apart

I've been remembering the bad times and the good with equal amounts of melancholy.

I've been remembering why I chose what I did.

I've been remembering all the heartbreak.

I've been remembering the people who left, who walked away.

I've been remembering the people that never really saw me.

I've been remembering all the fun things that don't happen anymore.

I've been remembering old insecurities

And it's good I've got a fabulous group of friends here. Because already I have enough memories with them to combat this melancholy. Even though it's barely been a month since we all met. Time doesn't seem to matter in this case.

I'm remembering dinner. Multiple times. Mostly at Heather's apartment.

I'm remembering playing 1000 Blank White Cards. Until 12:20am. That game got pretty crazy.

I'm remembering how we played Shadow Hunters instead of going to whatever sports thing was going on that night.

I'm remembering multiple weeks of tunnel singing.

I'm remembering the first night, at NSO. When all us non-Helaman people got walked home. That's when I realized I wanted to key these friends around.

I'm remembering every day in the Wilk. Just hanging out in the same spot.

I'm remembering multiple shopping trips for various items.

I'm remembering Heather's surprise party! I still can't believe we pulled that off. And then we played some more 1000 Blank White Cards. Because why not.

And after writing this, I feel better. Less tired of my own company. More able to deal with things. And who cares if it's my seventh blog post today. Seven is a lucky number right? And overall, I'm really a very lucky girl.