Music and noise. Constantly.
I miss having so much space and none at all (though in some ways that's still the same).
Having too much time, but always being busy.
Being able to read through ten books in one day just because I can.
I am closer to a library than I've ever been, and yet I read less because there's so much I have to do. But I'm going to change that.
Being able to sleep
Sleep is really nice.
I miss being silly and immature and not having to worry about adult things (and yet I also don't)
I miss Colorado sunsets over the mountains.
I miss going out and taking photographs with my sister, even though we only did it once or twice. It was so much fun to have girl time like that.
I miss being able to be completely irresponsible, being able to make really stupid choices and have it be quickly resolved. As horrible as it was, it's easier than dealing with adult issues. That easiness won't happen anymore.
I really miss choir and theatre. Next semester, I will be more involved with both.
We went to the HFAC today for FHE and played sardines, and walking around, seeing all the props, it made me realize how much I miss being part of a production in whatever capacity. I miss rehearsals and running lines and doing tech. I miss chilling backstage with the cast, having to bring dinner, going out to eat. I miss my theatre friends, especially one that I haven't seen in a long time- the productions we did were the most fun, because we understood each other, we got along. I miss that. I miss the craziness, how comfortable everyone was with each other.
I miss the freedom and the restrictions of being a child. It's so different from being grown up- not better or worse, but different. It's hard in different ways, it hurts in different ways.
I miss easy classes. In college, I actually have to study for tests beyond just doing the readings and classwork. That's something to get used to. It's not possible to totally BS stuff the same way. And all the questions are harder. Class is so much more fast paced, because it only happens a couple of times a week, and the semesters are shorter anyway.
I miss my anonymous blog, but I also don't. I can't rant how I used to, because now I know people will see it. But I also love that people see it, because it's still all pure me. It's still bits of both my bad and good days. It's still those pieces of my soul that I write out. It's just less....feely, I suppose. I do miss being able to do that. It helped get my head in order really well, better than anything else so far.
I miss a lot of things. But I also wouldn't go back to being where I was. I've come so far, and though I miss parts of where I've been, this is where I'm supposed to be. Today is a homesick day.
What do you miss?
What do you not miss at all?
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