Review

I just finished scrolling back through my entire blog, every single one of the 150 posts I've written since the spring. It was fascinating to watch myself grow, to watch the blog grow. I think my writing style has changed- possibly become a little more refined? (I found a couple typos too, from when I could only blog from my phone, but don't go looking for those, I don't have time to fix them)

It's amazing what can happen in just a short time- a little over six months. In that six months, I graduated high school, had my first official relationship (and watched it end in disaster), lost most of my old friends over certain stupid choices I made, moved to Provo, started at BYU, made new friends that I'm determined not to lose, and now I trust them more than anyone from before.

So much growing up can happen in such a short time. I watched myself grow, become more of an adult and less of a high school student, less of a child. I am less lost. I feel like my life is finally back in tune with His will, and it's going well. All this in less than six months. And before that, it's easy to see what a child I was- but a child with ideals, with potential. And I'm slowly, ever so slowly getting there. Finally.

I'm preparing for a mission, and watching my friends prepare as well. It's exciting, but a little bit melancholy, because already I know how much I will miss them. I already know that I'll have to write them every week, faithfully, along with the two missionaries that I'm writing already. I'm going to have to learn to type in double time before I leave on my mission!

There's still a lot of things I have to fix about myself. My heart is still pretty stubborn and bull-headed. My brain still is too overwhelmed and confused sometimes. I procrastinate (like right now, when I need to eat lunch and go take a test. But I don't have class until 3p). I still get so annoyed. And I've gotten sassier since coming here, still deciding whether I like it or not. I'm irresponsible when it comes to my own health (stayed up until 12:30 last night just to talk to people, but I wasn't late to class!)

But my heart is less stubborn than it was. My brain is better under stress than before. I have so much more to do that I'm starting to think the occasional blogging break is necessary for my health. And I actually studied for the test. I'm learning to tame my annoyance, and I've got a couple great examples of patience to follow. I'm learning to be a better friend, little by little.

So I'll keep walking down this dusty road. I'll have to read back through everything in another six months and see what happens.