What do you do when multiple choices are set before you? When each has its own merits, but attendant risks as well. When none seem better than the others, what do you do?
Do you pick the riskiest choice, that leaves you with the most knowledge?
Do you pick the slightly less risky option and just hope that it works out?
Or do you pick the easiest and remain comfortable in your ignorance?
Does what you choose depend on what the choice is? On what the possible results are? I find myself at quite a crossroads this night. To confront, to tell- or to leave in darkness, sweep under the rug and just let it quietly die, as it has been doing so far. I struggle to determine the gravity of the situation- trifling, or absolutely necessary- as that will be the factor in the end that makes the choice. Many things come to this crossroads eventually but none so emotionally wrenching as this: the possible loss of a friendship before it had a chance to truly begin. And not knowing the reasons why.
So perhaps this writing is choosing the second option on my list of three. Something less risky, but that still may yield unfavorable results. I doubt that any choice would yield positive ones. And perhaps this writing is just what I needed to release the tension and anger building inside me before something truly devastating occurs. Like losing my temper. I hate losing my temper. Or damaging this pseudo-friendship further. But perhaps it never existed except in my head and the only thing that will die is a delusion. I hope that is not true.
Really, this isn't risky at all though. The chances that the person in question will read this are undoubtedly minuscule. And I needed to write it.
A question, dear readers, though your numbers are few.
What do you do at such a crossroads? Do you sit back and watch? Do you do as I am doing?
Or do you take the leap?
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